Scott, Vonzell, Constantine
Scott going home??? Ahh, who knows!
I'm so incredibly fortunate to have such understanding and awesome friends. Most of whom I've never even met! The internet is my lifeline to these friends.
After having a rough time the past couple days with my creativity and where I'm going with it...if anywhere, I got an encouraging PM from my sweet little pal, Becky. She is wise beyond her years! I find it amazing that she is so grounded and humble. The woman is brillient. Our first meeting at CHA, proved to me that she really does deserve each and every success that she has earned. She is the real deal.
I'm so lucky to have people like Becky in my corner. It's so easy to just get in these funks where I feel like I'm going in circles. Never progressing forward nor falling behind. I'm not good at playing the waiting game. Patience is something I've had to learn since becoming a mother four years ago and I'm no where close to having perfected it. So when I want something I want it NOW!
I'm still working on that whole balance thing. Which has also now attached itself to the FOCUS word. Both are areas I need much improvement in. Seems I never take the time to even try to get there.
Could I have ADHD?
I'm seriously thinking it's a definate possibility. :) Jumping from one thing to the next is so me. Never maintaining enough focus to follow through with the first task I've began. Scrapbooking has really been the only thing of any significance that has kept me focused.
I find that I'm interested in a lot of different things. I enjoy doing a lot of "stuff" Love to read, write & sing. Passion for music, photography & art. Really dig the life of a doula. I think fashion is just so cool. I'm a sucker for eye candy. Antiques are cool, yet I find Mod stuff really intrigues me. I enjoy so many facets of so many differnt things that I sometimes find it hard to define myself.
Even when I blog...I'm all over the place. Like now.
But when I do blog something I usually just go with it. I never edit. I just type what comes out naturally and then hit SAVE. There it is. In all it's glory. Comprehensible or not.
How many of you can really define yourselves? I so struggle with this. I'm going to do a personal inventory test. Gotta figure out what makes me tick at 29....who am I at 29? Where do I want to go? Who do I want to be?
Should be intersting to figure all that out.
I can't figure out if I'm ahead of myself for things I need to do tomorrow or I'm just lagging behind from my long list of things I needed to do yesterday.
Trip to MO went ok last week. It really bites to see people you love face difficult challenges and changes in their lives. Especially, when you have absolutely no control over the situation and you can offer no more than a daily phone call to remind them that you are thinking of them.
I'm glad to have that trip over though and now I focus on my next trip. On to CT I go. I will be leaving May 12th. A day sooner than I originally planned but I felt the need to be available to Nikky if she needed me to help with anything last minute.
Luckily, I have the most outstanding husband in the entire freaking world and he just allows me to zippidy do da all over the United States for all of these obligations I've had lately. Gotta love that man.
Summer is upon us. I would say that after VBS (june) I can breathe a sigh of relief for a month or so. I am looking forward to it.
Dresses are being altered. Gotta love the fact that I managed to get 2 dresses altered and pressed for only $119. That is incredible considering Kat is paying nearly double that for a hem. That's ridiculous.
Hudson's hearing test is tomorrow. Looking forward to a definitive answer there. I'm sure I'm playing the overprotective mother role quite well.
I have a couple major projects I would like to finish up. Ones that are so important to me and I've just been dragging on because I've let my fear of failure creep in and consume me. I hate that. I hate that I will allow myself to forgo something I really want in order to preserve my pride. That's such garbage. :(
Highlight of my week is coming up on Thurs. We've got an online chat planned with Ali! So looking forward to that. She's always good for some inspiration!
Have Kat's bachelorette party this weekend. Looking forward to hanging with some girls. We're staying here. Just having like a totaly girly spa thing and then we'll have a lingerie shower, eat dinner, and hang and have some drinks. Should be fun.
Time to call it a night. Feeling good that I got to check in here.
Where in the world have I been? I was doing so well on my blogging and then WHAM! I get hit with 2 weeks of PURE STRESS! How does that happen? Why? It's just been so darn crazy. And for any of you who know me I'm not a great multi-tasker so it's just sucked the life right out of me to have to deal with all of this.
I had Kat's bridal shower to plan. That was an event. Who know that when I campained for Maid of Honor that I would have so much freakin' work to do!!!! It went well but I'm so glad it's over. She was so sweet about it and I know she really appreciated it. Now, we just have the bachelorette party and bridal portraits left and them it's home free.
We've been having a rough time with Grammie lately. She had a really rough couple days about 2 weeks ago. Didn't recognize her own house and was very confused. We found out that she had taken 4 times the amount of insulin she should have and it was just bad. Mom has stepped up (Thank God) and is moving her in with her. I plan to fly home to St. Louis on the 21st to help Grammie with the transitions to Mom's...and to help Mom too. It's going to be quit an adjustment for both of them.
On top of that, my Uncle Ed was diagnosed with cancer. It is Melonoma and it started internally. It has consumed his entire body and he is not doing well. No hope for treatment and he is in incredible pain. It has been really really hard. All we hope now is that he will be called Home soon and will be peaceful. I'm doing ok today with it. Each day is different and hard.
Crazy nuts at school with the end of the year rolling around. We have graduation coming up and the kids are stoked to be moving on the Kinder. I will miss them.
Little Man, is still struggling with his hearing. I called the pediatrician and they tell me they won't test his hearing until he is 4..which I don't understand, but hey, whatever. They referred me to a pediatric ENT and he goes in next Wed. I hope I'm just over reacting.
Deadlines are upon me...I'm such a procrastinator.
Travel plans to CT are underway. Sooo excited to be heading out there! I can't wait! I'd love to stay in a little B&B but I'll have to see. It's not really a leisure trip but it would still rock to have some peaceful time to myself.
-off to scrap. Deadlines deadlines!