not much has changed in 5 days...has it been 5 days...what's the date anyway? it's a blur. the whole week. i'm feeling hopeful...because i have to...and i've been told to and i'm trying to hold onto that. but i believe i've prayed more in the last week than i have since my grannie died. i've tried to just be still. i tend to ask alot of questions. i want things mapped out for me and i become obsessed with them and when there is turmoil around me i feel the need to continually analyze and focus on nothing else until i find a solution. but often times it's not about finding immediate solutions and i recognize that ...it's just not always easy to sit back and be still. i have 3 kids...i'm a preK teacher...my life has not been conditioned for stillness. so this week has been hard. but i'm plowing through with lots of support.
an easy form of diversion has come in the form of illness. unfortunately, for my entire family....with the miraculous exception of mark...who is still strong and well and thank goodness because if my husband had been sick thru this time i would be a giant mess. hudson was first...high fever starting last sunday. it disappeared for a couple days only to return with a vengence. then congestion, coughing, goopy eyes.....at which point i took him to the pediatrian thinking it was pink eye. i couldn't have been more wrong. at the pediatricians office i was surprised when she sent him for a chest xray...and then discovered he had pnuenomia. we left w/ 5 prescriptions. that was thursday. later that night brooklyn began with similar symptoms...however, not as severe. by friday afternoon i was starting to feel pretty crappy myself. fever, cough, sore throat...bleck. mark, thank goodness, came home early and helped adminster meds and baby us all. and thank goodness he was feeling well enough to take hudson to the emergency room at 1am that night. poor little dude went into a full fledged coughing attack that was so fierce he was vomitting from it. i had a fever and felt like i'd been hit by a train so there was no way i could take him in...so i made a list of the meds he was on along with the name of our pediatrician and sent them off. they returned at 4 am ...hudson scarfed down a handful of doritos and headed to bed. they gave him some heavy duty cough mediacine (w/ condeine no less) and he was on the mend. we're all still a bit blah but hopefully heading in the right direction. speaking of which, i should rest. parker is sleeping soundly and i should take advantage of it. :)