do you ever wake up and realize you have so much crap to do that you don't even know where to begin. and i'm not talking about the very regular...
"pick up dry cleaning"
"empty lint tray"
no, i'm referrring to major projects that you just keep putting off thinking someday, somewhere, somehow, someone will drop 12 extra hours out of the sky and add them to each day of the rest of your life and during those hours provide you with free babysitting and a lifetime supply of Red Bull so you have the energy to get it all done. oh, and cure you of your undiagnosed ADD so that you are actually able to focus on getting it all done without breaking to read a random philosophy book and ponder your lifes purpose, kick back and watch some ellen or climb the stairs for the 14th time in an hour to check your email, blog or aimlessly roam the internet in search of more cool sites to bookmark into your favorites.
yes, this is what i did today. thought about all the big projects i want to tackle. adding them to the endless to do list. adding them into the mix of all the other normal daily things i need to do like laundry, dishes and digging hot wheels cars out of the couch. most of these big projects are things i WANT to do....creative things, organizational missions, clearing out the clutter and simplifying our life again, decorating, backing up all our pictures, writing more. yes, there are a million and twelve things i want to tackle and can't seem to find the time because all the other little things keep taking up so much of my time. and when i find a solution to help with the little things ...like becoming a stay at home mom again...hiring a cleaning lady it seems it only allows me more time to THINK about doing everything else. and it's an endless cycle that i become obsessed with. always knowing i'll never be "caught up" with everything i want to get done.
but in a small effort to make some headway i'd like to spend some serious time in the next week clearing out ALOT of stuff we don't need anymore. the more stuff we have...the more options we have...which means the more time we spend trying to make decisions regarding things that just don't matter. so i'm clearing out my closet first. yes, i'm going to let go. be free. i mean who needs 17 pairs of jeans????? 13 of the probably don't fit and at least 2 pair i hate.
who needs 10 pair of khaki capri's?????
who needs 10 pair of black capris??????
who needs 20 purses????
who needs 35 tshirts??? (ok, this is probably a long shot)
i want to get rid of 70%........that might be a stretch but i'm dreamin big here people.
i'm hoping this will get me a good start. parring down makes me feel in control.
and right now....
i need to control.