long weekend. a highly anticipated weekend event at church. i wish i could say i went in with an open and peaceful heart, but life, as it often does, seemed to get in the way of an honest worship. tried as i might, it was a hard weekend to get through but there were highlights and moments of pureness and joy that my heart caught glimpse of...which gave me hope.
a word, when spoken to me, calms my spirit and is something i cling to desperately. but i often wonder how hopeful i really am. i hear it. i speak it. i think it....but do i live it?
i don't know.
this is a hard time for me and for people around me that i love.
church. family. friends. life.
sometimes, somedays i just need to feel sad in order to find the hope on the other side.
i think this is one of those days.
i find that doubt and panic have crept into my heart where hope use to reside.
i just feel a bit out of sorts. a little lost.
it's hard to find hope in uncertainty. but what in life is certain?
i have the answer. the one certainty in life....so why can't i just trust Him?
right now. i need to trust because i don't begin to know how to heal the turmoil within my own heart. the struggles. the questions. the doubts.
trust in Him.
find hope in Him.