each morning i wake up and before i get out of bed i pray. well, most days....almost everyday. but i will admit i've missed a few when i've skyrocketed out of bed because i've hit snooze one too many times and realize i have 30 minutes to get 2 children up, dressed, fed and out the door all the while maintaining that peaceful glow i usually radiate in the a.m.
i look forward to this time...(the prayer time not the mad rush time). somedays when i'm especially distraught, confused, bitter, angry or otherwise in turmoil i find myself asking alot of questions and pleading for the answers. but more times than not i will proudly say that i start this time in a thankful blesesd state always amazed that i have been granted another day to prove myself worthy of the ultimate price that has been paid for the air that i breathe and the life that fills me....and most nights when i go to sleep at night i realize how i have fallen short yet again....but nonetheless i am thankful for the opportunity.
tonight i am again, thankful as i reflect on the little rewards i have been given all week.
monday-for the first time in over a month my entire family was healthy. mark's foot has healed. hudson's croup is but a faint memory and parker's smile can light up a room.
tuesday-brooklyn's parent/teacher conference had me beaming. her teacher is amazing! she had the nicest things to say about brooklyn. she had a list of strengths....many i already knew....but one was especially pleasing to hear. compassion. this is a biggie and one i've been praying for ....well, for as long as i can remember. i know she is only 6 but already in her short 6 years i have experienced a few occassions where i was convinced the compassion gene had skipped right over that girl. compassion.....i relished that more than any of the other "strengths" her teacher mentioned. just..compassion.
wednesday-hudson's parent/teacher conference. hudson is my baby....even if he's not anymore. he was my baby for 5 years and he loves his mama. the bond we have is amazingly strong and i feel safe when he is with me. he is my comfort and my joy. he's my sensitive little dude. and i was worried about kinder. but he is shining. his teacher said he is THE role model for the entire class...boys and girls alike.
it's hard to walk away from these parent/teacher conferences and not think you've really done something right. you've really figured this parenting thing out! but i know better. i know that my ability and strength comes only from my own Father...the one who blessed me with the priveldge of being a mother. yea, tuesday and wednesday pretty much rocked.
today/tonight-my neurologist finally called and the CT scan was normal. so now...we just play with medications to see if we can curb these headaches. today i played with parker ....alot. we just layed in the floor most of the day exploring every toy and piece of fuzz on the carpet. i'm pretty sure i coud weave a small rug with the amount he ingested....all the while smiling from ear to ear. and tonight was bunko night. and for the 2nd (or maybe even 3rd) month in a row i came home with $. :) tonight i won the role off and got my $5 back. so today....good day.
friday-tomorrow i get to eat lunch and go shopping with jana.....that's bound to be a good day. :)
a great week. little rewards. lots to be thankful for. good stuff.